so it is TGIF again..

haha..
so ytd is baby first time that can not send me back..

how i felt about it..
i guess i am a very independent person.
so it is not hard for me to take public transport back..
but i guess i kind of miss his crap that will entertain me through the drive back..
haha..

not that bad actually..
i guess he wanted to meet up after his dinner with his friend de..
but i didnt pick up the call due to working late..
yeah yeah..

i went back at 8pm..
and continue my work at home.
haha...
too tired to continue work in office..
haha..

and baby called me after his dinner that he missed me.. :P
sometime he is sweet! :)

who say younger generation can not stay long in a job..

it all boils down to the environment and the salary..
some work for passion..
some work for money..
some even work for family..

be it any reasons..
if the company is good..
the turnover rate wun be high..

and secondly..
if the environment is right..
ppl wun run..
so..
you think in this world..
you can get a cheap and good employee with a bad environment...
den it is time to wake up from your idea..

stop saying that ppl dont stay in one job..
coz i stay in mine for 7 yrs..
and most of my friends stay in 1 job for at least a solid 3 yrs..

so it boils down to your mgmt skills to make a person stay...
buck up on that ya...

oh my god.. i am so sorry readers..
have been going crazy with work..
and the person that is suppose to come for job just MIA like that..
how is that even possible??
it does happen..
coz it is why in the first place we are in this kind of situation..
strawberry generation is how the mgmt level call us..
angry and disagree to this accusation..
coz we are the strawberry generation...
that are still good workers in this generation..
we dont go ard complaining to our mummy about the things we have to go through...

we face our own problem and we do solve them ourselves too..
we also discuss about things.. instead of just keep quiet like the older generation thinking that it will solve by themselves..

not to say about comparison..
coz older worker have more experiences then us..
that is true..
but we are more creative and innovative than them..
we have the logo of working smart instead of just plainly working hard nowadays..
coz hard labor is very hard to keep up with technology...
while working smart bring you to the same goal faster.. :)

so it is the changes that we are talking about..
look far we are taught..
and we are using what we are taught..

sorry readers...
i know i rattled a lot..
coz this label of strawberry generation on our head is irritating the shit out of me..
i am sure the older generation when they are younger..
they are known as "hot blood"..
but they too grow and change..
so what make you all think that we can not change and adapt...

the stress of getting marry...

haha..

sometime i think i am more stress with my work then my life..

but alicia is more stress with the wedding.. 

yeah..

met up with cy, wx, alicia and richard.. :)

 so we are all planning where to go after our BKT.. 

then K-box it shall be..

haha.. :) 

last min.. :) 

sometime take a break from work.. is an kind of enjoyment..

total screw up at work on a TGIF...

and i just felt so much better when i met my friends.. :) 

thank you baby for picking me up and sending my friends back..

haha.. 

sometime it really make me wonder how i manage to find such a cute and lovable sotong..

haha.. 

and he wake up early today just to send me to work.. :) 

see..

with carrot cake and starbucks! 

i just love my baby sotong! 

thank you! muacks! :)

but i guess..
the stress from marriage is not yet at my end..
so i shall take a chill pill first.. :)

meet ups and enjoying life..

so i meet up with my darling ytd...
we have a good chat too..
i agree with what she have to say..

so what if you are telling the person that you are waiting for the person after breakup but you have not done anything..
anything at all to try and win her back.
talking with no action will only bring the two of you back to the same situation..
coz the prob is not tackle in the first place..
so what if you are given a chance to patch back..

i am thankful that she is one of the ppl that i can always have a heart to heart talk about..
if a person can not understand me and what i wan..
everything also i must say it out...
den i dont need a bf..
i can just make do with my friends and myself..
but i am still thankful that i met my sotong..
coz without saying anything..
he know what i wan..
small fights and arguments are common..
but i promise not to fight in the public..
as i understand what they meant by men ego..
everyone change..
no one will stand as the same as before..
coz we all grow and learn..

to be frank...
if you ask me..
not scare that you can not get marry..
not scare your bf not faithful to you..
not scare you can not find a better one then your ex..
my ans.. i am scared...
but i know what i wan and i dont wan to just make do with things..

well..
guess i am just lucky that i get my sotong in return..
a guy that understand my wants and needs..
that know what i wan without even saying..
just that i have to handle his temper..
haha..
i guess i can live with that..
dont need a guy that is very rich..
but i just need a guy to pamper me..

well..
my uncle is saying that i am getting fatter liao this morning..
and i told him..
i am happy..
blissful..
so i dont give a shit of what he have to comment about me being fat..
since my sotong also nv say anything about it..
and he like me just the way i am.. :)

my darling will be travelling soon..
and i am waiting for my trip soon too!! :)
yes love! :)
we are two of a same kind..haha..

what is the cost of a wedding..

ppl started asking..
and i started wondering..
what kind of wedding i wan..
erm..
just a simple one lor..

dont need to invite all to come and eat..
actually my point still stand..
i just wan a simple one to so called "announce" that i am married..
and i wan to spend my money on honeymoon instead..
haha.. :)

i guess i am more of a enjoying person ba..
coz i spend so much money but other ppl eat and party..
make myself so tired..
sometime wonder..
worth it a not..
haha..

but i keep kanna so many wedding bomb sia..
need to find a hideout liao..
haha..
joking joking..
friends one of coz i will go.. :)

looking at resale nowadays..
and they are no where cheap too!!!
haha.. :)

planning planning..
somemore with my studies plan..
haha...
die ar.. :P

so much in hand...
just hope that i can save enough in time.. haha.. :)

oh.. and baby brought me to try the white bee hoon in sembawang...
not bad actually..
but he was asking me if i am a person who will queue forr food..
i can queue la..
but make sure the food is worth it..
if not..
haha..
i think my mum call me pei shan AKA paitence got reason one..
haha... :P

listening to something like this.. by coldplay and chainsmoker..

wedding bells..

so can someone tell me..
how to attend so many wedding in 1 yr??
my wallet is seriously burning a very very big hole..

so i was told.. many BTOs are coming in this year..
that why..

well..
i guess i wan to look at resale flat side..
since i am not able to find one BTO that i can accept yet..
i wan to find a place that is in between leh..
haha.. :)

as for wedding bells..
guess i am in planing too ba..
coz they say that i am old liao..
the known fact as old maid..
haha.. :)
but do they all know that the average wedding age in singapore is about 29 to 35..
and beside that is when they wan children so they have to faster get marriage..
how much you will have to invest in a kid for them to grow up...
tough decision leh..
haha...

all needs planning de.. :)

does it make any difference of friday, sat, sun and monday??

so it is TGIF today.
and i dont feel the momentum of weekend.....

ytd.. in office until 10.30pm!!!
and i felt like killing ppl..
well..
i will not say who...

but luckily ytd got hana and sheena to accompany me..
and the best part..
baby sotong bought ice cream for us..
heap heap hooray!!!
haha..

sometime he is really sweet to a certain extend..
as in 1 dont believe that guys will do it..
he shd go home and rest coz the night before he OT until very late..
and go work ytd too...

but he insist to come down and send me back coz it is raining at my side..
i am not sure sometime how to get used to it..
as in he always send me back even when i go out with friends..
i felt bad instead..
so i promise i will treat my baby sotong better de!!!
haha.. i hope that is not a lie.. ****cross finger***

and ytd..
ali is super sweet also..
coz he bought pizza for our supper..
can someone tell me why guys are so sweet nowadays???
or is just the 80's guys that know how to treat a lady right???
haha..

love them all to the max..

well tomorrow is thondres wedding!
that came as a surprise..
and it also meant other things too.. :)

tomorrow have to go down training also..
coz to celebrate mdm and wei xin birthday! :)

happy 5 month anniversary sotong!

Happy 5 month anniversary to my baby Sotong!!

i love you much much!! 

haha.. 

in a blink of eye.. it has already been 5 month! 

i thank you for everything you have done for me... 

much loves... :) 

so looking forward to our trip to hong kong.. 

haha.. 

but before that.. 

let us go to our JB trip first kay.. 

haha.. :) 

well... 

i think when it is said family trip.. 

my whole family should go instead of just 4 ppl... 

but i guess to get the whole family together is tough ya.. 

my ah ma keep asking me to go back to china!!! 

oh my god.. 

can you believe it a not.. 

i have to go to a place that i dont even fancy about..

haha.. 

why ah ma why??? 

and the best part.. 

i nv know that my reputation in china is so great that..

everyone is asking me how am i??

and if i am attached or am i getting marry a not.. 

haix..
guys also not easy to find you know...
specially those that know how to take care of you and treat you rite..
i am not a player to start with in the first place..
so i am very thankful that all the guys i met and have been together know how to treat a lady rite..
and i think it is good that we are still friends afterall.. 

what a question.. 

sorry i dont wan to ans now.. 

when it is time.. the truth will be known.. 

not now.. 

back to my happy day! 

baby like to buy a lot of good foods for me sia.. 

when i told him i am not a branded person.. 

he understood that.. and think i am more of a food person like him.. haha.. XD

i am seriously getting very fat becoz of him..

but i am happy to grow fat with him! muacks! :)

i am still in love with the Jay chou - gao bai qi qiu and jj lin - ran wo xin dong de ren.. :) 

start my day with happiness and stay happy.. 

forgive had always been easier than hate! :) 

so i will not hate anyone in my office.. 

just angry and forget it.. 

sometime.. you just have to ignore and get over it.. 

too much feelings and emotions in your workplace.. 

it will bring you down..

okay to find buddies in workplace..

but when it is time to move on.. you move on..

coz ppl changes... 

share something in facebook : you can continue to love your ex, but you have to move on with your life.. 

i agree to love your ex.. as in the good memories that you both shared.. 

but move on as in.. it is clear that things happen and is over.. so you have to find your new happiness too! :) 

for that i really understand.. 

but everyone saw it and thgt otherwise.. 

haha.. :) 

i shared is for some friends of mine that dont get this point.. 

not me! haha.. :) 

okay.. back to work.. 

need to go off in time for my dinner tonight.. loves! :) 

are you worth of their time?

so ytd..

got shits from work too..

i really think there is something very wrong here..

since none of them lasted more than 6 months... 

the mgmt have to look into it since there is such a high turnover in just a short period of 6 months... 

think back.. 

i guess i really have to change the situation i am in now..

is the company worth of your time or you are worth of the company time..
environment..
it is changing your mindset as well...

well.. thinking back of the dogs i saw at ilight.. 

i thgt of baby... 

wondering how he is now..

i guess now he is about 8 yrs old.. 

time flies..

i know i never have a chance to see him ever again.. 

haha.. 

just hope he is doing good.. :) 

he is one of the guai dog that i have encountered before.. 

and i missed hugging him.. 

i told sotong that i wan to keep a dog..

and he told me.. how you wan to keep..

your ah ma will allow meh..

so i shd hide him under my bed.. haha..

well.. i guess it is only possible if i have my own house.. :) 

so.. i got a super fun and tiring weekend..

well..
have a tummy cramp..
gal prob..
not able to go down training..
it is just that bad..
lucky baby come and fetch me from work on a sat..
i am sorry baby...
if not i might faint in office..
okay that is too much...
well.. after that we just rot at home lor..
movie time.. haha..
lie in bed, with a hot chocolate, a warm quilt and tv on netflix..
i guess i am in heaven..
haha..

sometime i just think that he is a lady..
he seem to understand a lady well and treat a lady right..
scary..
haha..

well.. a boring and grumpy sat..
stay home day..

and sunday..
i got shits in the morning..
this work is pissing me totally off for now..
why..
interviews you dont come..
haix..

but my day is brighten up by baby..
coz we went bugis..
to pray..
den go and buy presents for wei xin and mdm! :)
haha..
yeah yeah..
kanna question by baby..

baby sotong: why are you always the one buying present???
me: coz i like to see ppl happy with what i have bought...
baby sotong: den i buy for you leh???
me: of coz i am super happy la..
baby sotong: but i nv see you wear all the things i bought for you...
me: coz i wear it in my heart..
**** sweetness overload*****
who say i cannot be sweet one..
lai.. jiang... XP

after that we have our lunch in bugis..
follow by a long walk down to suntec..
yeah..
our pokemon streak is still going very strong..
haha.. :)
caught a few rare one..

den he bring me down to the marine bay for the ilight...
nothing much actually..
and the food are just so so only..
but i guess...
it is the ppl that you go with that matters and not the place..

but due to the pokemon streak too strong..
we walk over to garden by the bay for pokemon hunting..
and saw dinosaurs instead..
haha..

the gong gong me..
how come still got so many kids over here..
tomorrow no school meh..
*** kanna say by sotong: coz tomorrow is already school holiday****
-.-"'
sometime when you are out of sch for too long..
you tends to forget about school holiday..
haha..

and i guess i completed my 21km walk..
just like the army boys ya...
until my legs are no longer mine..
and have leg cramp..
it sucks..

well i will say..
not any guy i see will massage their gf legs in the public just becos they are tired..
and i am very sure that baby is very tired from carrying my bag and dragging me along all the way..
but the sweet things about him is..
he dont care what others think..
and he just do it..

yes.. in the public at marine bay sand..
he piggy back me to a place to sit down..
and massage my legs..
coz i cannot walk anymore..
and he is telling me..
very few guys will carry and massage your leg in public..
and i replied..
yes.. you did and i guess i am in luck! haha..
the payment..
1 ice cream cone when my gal prob is off!!
haha..
negotiating.. :P

i thanks my baby for being so sweet..
i means we have our downs too..
but i thank him for the effort to make my days ups more than downs.. :)

love you baby sotong..
muacks!

i guess this week is also a packed week for me..

what is the shit about hanging up call..

seriously i am bloody pissed off and i sincerely hate ppl that like to hang up other ppl call...
so if i am pissed or not happy i hang up a person call la..
didnt you even have the bloody manner to say a F****** bye!!!!

i never understand that..
it can be a lot of ppl in front of you or you are busy.. but saying a bye dont kill you.
or telling ppl you are busy at the moment and get back later..
i am sorry but it is just me that friends matter a lot to me..
if you are not happy about it..
den i really think you shd not even have talk to me in the first place..
i am a real person as in if i dont like you i wun stab you..
but i am very sure that i will not wan to talk to you..
i dont do two face..

say that my character is like that..
i understand that we fight.. we argued..
but i wun say i hate you unless you touch my limits..
it is not a matter of being kind or what..

but as you see ar..
if i am out with my friends..
i am 100% sure that they will send me back like you will do for your friends..
so what is the big deal about it...
if you are tired.. you can just tell me nicely..
i am sure my friends can understand that..

that is what i call temper control..
i dont do things to ppl that i dont wan them to do it back to me..
so i dont hang up their bloody phone..
coz i am no longer a childish teenager..
grew up from there kay..

just like i keep jio-ing ppl out..
but they dont wan to meet up with lots of excuses...
i will naturally stop asking them out..
coz if they dont wan to be in your life..
dont need to force yourself to be in their life..
there are a lot of ppl out there that will want you to be in their life.. :)
remember...
what come ard ... goes ard.. :)

so my next trip is planned...

yes!!
next trip confirm le..
sometime i really lucky to think that i found my sotong...
haha..
hong kong trip booked! :)
the date and time will be reveal when he tell me when...
haha..
coz i didnt do the booking...
imagine suddenly i am out of Singapore for a holiday..
that kind of surprise..
nice one sotong!! ;)

a place that i wanted to go but didnt have the chance to do it in the past...
so i am thankful for the thgt to plan..
haha.. it is suppose to be a surprise de.. but i crash the surprise sometime back..
this is what happen when you have a clever GF..
haha..
seem to read his mind.. :P
need a break. hope i can get into school...
i guess since last year..
i have been taking a lot of breaks..

that is a good sign??
i am not sure..
but one thing i am sure about..
i have to do up my saving and start my future planning with another direction..
he is very keen in it too!!!
haha..

he is not gentle.. but his thgt is..
he is not good looking... but his heart is..
he is not rich.. but his mind is..

i am looking for a soulmate more than an ATM...
even with his last cent.. i will still be his priority..
but when i am down or troubled.. his ears are always there for me no matter how late..
i thank god that i found him...
sometime it is just a twist of fate...
last year this time.. i am still suffering from my heart ache..
this time this year.. i have a sotong to amend my heart and keep it safe..

position and title is scary...

yeah..
my topic today is about promotion and rank difference..
you see..

if you tell me that being promoted but you remain your old standard..
that is a lie..
why i say that..
coz with my own eyes..
i see how a person that i have known for 10 yrs..
changes within few month to someone else that i nv know..

ppl are asking me why i didnt climb the corporate ladder..
coz i know how shitty it is to climb up on other ppl backs..
but i guess.. it dont matter to you at all..

no matter how good you do.. there is always someone else to comment behind your back..
to me..
i will ignore at times..
coz it doesnt seem to make a point to me..
but you have seem to get high up on it..
disappointment is all i can say...

well.. ppl say..
time will let you see a person true color..
but i disagree...
coz greedy and power will change a person..
you have the status and salary..
but we are not...
you cant expect us to work like you..
since you are higher paid than us..
the power and position changes the moment you promoted and dont expect same treatment like us..

we can only take over when the new boy come..
sian balls!

i have no words to say... so i will just let karma do its job...

so it is just you and me..
i will not do that..

if you wan..
you go ahead and do it..
but worry for karma..
that is all i have to say..

Thank you very much..

i shd skipped the negativity like what sotong had told me..
but this fellow is too much..
too much to the core..
and i hope you can rest well and slp well at night ya. :)

so i am back to square one...

in a place full of backstabber and nonsense...
i really hate that place..
why do ppl have to behave that way..
all of us are just trying to keep our rice bowl..
so why are you all trying to destroy other ppl rice bowl..

i will say that i have met enough of these kind of nonsense ppl before..
but to be frank..
i nv want to be involved..
but seriously!!!
are the mgmt blind to keep taking all these kind of shit ppl..
YOU ALL MAKE ME WANT TO VOMIT!!!

pls continue with your two face..
and let karma look for you kay!
when things dont go your way..
you are only good at showing temper instead of solving it..
so what kind of leaders are you..

deep thgt about it..
although i can choose to forgive..
but you are trending very very near to my limits..
i will just finish my things and go home..
no worth a second to be spend here...

that is how it will end..

ya.. i know.. 

today is a very sad day for me..

coz faezah last day already.. 

a colleague that is with me for the past 6 yrs.. 

too many emotions and feelings overwhelming me..

there are ups and downs..

and i am so glad that we have been through it together..

okay.. i have to stop my post... 

my emotions are covering..

it felt like a second break up...