lose weight i shd be..

Yeah!!! finally it is TGIF le..
haha...

weekends coming..
out for a dinner of BKT ytd!!
totally shiokness..
not becoz that i didnt pay for the food..
but becoz of the company!!! :)
enjoying the smart ass comments and jokes..
but you dont get angry with each other as you are just not petty..
haha..
sometime things really happen when you least expect it..

It is the company that make the food tasty instead of the food itself..
and i realize that when you dont have high expectation..
if the food hit your expectation.. you tends to be more happy..
haha.. :)

gentlemen gesture,,
sending a lady back all the way to her lift..
that will be a gentleman i called..
if you wan to ask someone out..
den you have the responsibility to send them back..
but i think my cousin dont seem to understand this point..
just like nowadays teenagers..
this kind of gentleman gesture is so hard to  find..
haha..
call me old school..
but i think it always work..

as for that ...
listen to the oldies if you wan to get a lady!! haha..
sorry that is for my cousin.. :P
erm..
let me go lunch later den i update more for my guru talk.. :)

wish a upon a star..

today is already thursday.. 

Jia you ppl.. 

1 more day to fri.. 

and good luck to those that have started their school and nightmare again..

haha..

jia you!! 

you all can do it.. 

somemore already final year liao..

a bit more to go!! :) 

it also mean that year end is coming!!! 

let all jia you together and welcome to the festive seasons..

shortest sem of the year.. :) 

oh oh.. 

have to go.. 

boss calling.. :P 

let see... it is mid-week..

ever feel like you know someone for a long time and feel very very comfortable to talk everything under sun??

but you have nv meet him or her before..

haha.. 

and you feel like it is just so easy to talk and click???

even when you are angry and moody..

you dont have to hide any emotions from him or her.. 

and they always have a way to calm you down instead..

dont even have to say..

i think i am in luck this week..
since i am meeting this kind of ppl for the week that just make my week pass faster and happier.. :) 

haha.. :) 

and the best news!!!!

holidays!!!!! 

when you have steady friends..

your holiday seem more promising!!! :) 

holiday first.. money talk later..

haha.. :) 

maybe i shd just go and find some part time job too.. :)

Listening to 江南- 林俊傑

so how is that???

Well..
not that i dont wan to post..
just that i have been busy..
haha..

erm...
i think i stop at Saturday for my previous post rite..
let continue..
so sunday morning..
went for my normal face washing..
yeah yeah..
still so sucky..
coz my face really CMI..
need a few more treatments....
haha...

after that went to badminton..
good exercise after a long break..
haha..
and the best part is we play for 2 and half hour straight..
not bad..
but all can not make it for olympic one...
age is catching up i will say..

after that..
went for dinner at bukit timah..
the food is good and affordable..
oh oh and adam road de da xia mian is closed..
they are closed for renovation..
so readers..
remember not to go there for the time being ya..

erm.. shall we plan a trip to Thailand on December???
let all get start ya.. :)
random thinking..

we walk ard the pasar malam a while before going back home..
and i totally knock out straight after my ironing..
dont even have time to watch my drama..

and ytd was another day at work.
nowadays...
i dont give a damn if the work need me or i need a work..
when i wan a break i just go..

and the best is i went to crash a date..
haha..
with my cousin la.. :)
erm..
dinner, darts and movie..
we act like the next day we dont have to work like that..

and ta-ta...
a zombie at work today..
haha..

okay.. i think enough of my week "live" update..

so all it take is just a mistake and the whole matter get out of hand..
i dont wan to say anymore..
if you think you are right..
by all means do it..
i really too sick and tired of saying le..
and you not listening..
get away from me while you still can.. :)

oh.. talk about busy..
i think i got a more hectic weekend this week..
need to rush down for 2 weddings this weekend on the same day..
so you know what it meant..
MONEY MONEY MONEY..
where is the money.. it is a rich man world.. haha...

now joining the JJ team..
haha..

listening to  我还想她 - Lin Jun Jie...

saturday.. thinking how about i post what i done for the week?? :)

my weekdays now..
very short one..

shits everywhere and everyday!!! :)
it just make me realise that i need to give time to my ownself..
just like what he used to be telling me last time..

i think i pass the stage of going out for dating where i feel more "real" with my family and friends now..
meet up with new ppl are good but just that i feel like i wan to be a home person at the moment..
haha..
i might be tired of going out with strangers..
i felt time spent on friends and family are more worth it..
and my "one" could be just in my "friends" instead...
just like what my uncle had said..
why look so far and missed out things that are in front of you...
this is true..

but i am not going to look into details..
coz i believe if it is mine..
no matter what..
it will still be mine in the end..

as for you,,,
i am sorry that i am not someone that is willing to keep taking shit..
if you can not be professional..
that is your problem..
not mine..
i have not send any wrong signal in the first place..
and being clear to you that nothing much more than friend..

so either you get out of my sight or you continue your childish play and i will stand back and watch..
laughing it off is easy for me..
being there for friends i can...
but being there to take vulgar and your tantrums...
i am sorry i dont..

i hate ppl to hang up my calls and doing shits behind my back..
but you are nv worth my fight.. :)

okay..
back to my weekend..
i shd not waste it off.,. :)
blog later.. :)

from the past to the present before going to the future..

from the past.. 

i am just a gal that hope to be protected.. 

at the present.. 

i am just a lady that hope to be love.. 

in the future... 

i am just a lady that is fill with joy and happiness.. 

why am i writing poetry... 

coz i keep seeing ppl posting on facebook about poetry..

so i decided to try one myself..

haha..

not bad rite.. :P 

well.. waiting for your move.. 

and i think it is not going to happen..

so shd i give up?? 

i am so looking forward to weekend now...

i just wan to break away..
too much shits here!!!!!

i have always say time to change job..
but didnt really move..
so...

it is just time for me to packed up my emotion..
and get my ass back to study..
i just wan to get out of here..

my everyday make me feel that i am trapped...
luckily i have a bunch of good friends that support me..
sometime i wonder..
how do you get out of something when there is no one to support you...

how childish can you get???

why do i keep seeing his shadow around me..

i dont need this kind of shits when i am already facing shit.. 

if you are not happy about me..

tell me in the face..

i am already leaving you alone and you still wan to try your luck..

stop poking me and stop posting those stupid things online for ppl to see... 

coz it just show how childish you are..

unfollow me or block me if you wan.. 

i dont care... 

and i seriously not interested to know..

best of all.. get out of my sight now.. 

never understand why things always have to reach this stage.. 

back to work.. 

erm.. everyday is like war zone..

i am sick and tired of coming to the war zone everyday..
and facing with this kind of ppl make my blood go upstair too..

so tired..
i am totally not in the mood to blog...

after a tiring weekend..

so let go back..

Fri.. half day..
Coz i went to F1.. :)
it is a good experience..
but i am still not going to pay for this kind of things..

not worth the money..
imagine...
600 Bucks for 1 seat!!!!
god must be crazy ma..
haha..

got home quite late..
but the next day got staycation..
and the best of all..
got my IPHONE 7 rosegold!!!!

yeah!!! :)
finally..
den i remember that i haven buy screen protector and cover..
coz my iphone 6 cover can not recycle..
why like that..
so waste my money lor..

haix..
den suddenly i remember that i dont know how to put screen protector..
double shit..
haix..
that was a time when i dont need to worry about it..
but i just realized that i am single..
so i have to do it myself..
well..
i think i start to appreciate things more..
and there i got more independent.. haha...

after that rushing down to Dhoby Ghuat to meet up with TFF..
our ladies Staycation is finally here..
so ya...
the room is big..
but the price is not cheap la..
haha..

but the climbing of the stairs are the scary one..
my leg like breaking sia..
haha... :)

but the room is good la.. :)
and i enjoy the company..
specially when you have a group of ppl going ard with you to do pokemon hunting..

den got a shocked text from sharon..
she wan to come down for training.. haha..
but the sad part is i can not join Sharon they all at the training ground..
shock rite..
sharon come down for training..
haha.. :)

as for Sunday..
went to Sophia 21 birthday party..
so fast sia.
last time all still babies..
now all taller then me..
dont admit old also can not liao..
haha.. :)

so fast sia time pass..
super tired..
fell aslp once reach home..

side track a bit..
if you give me shit..
of coz i will give you shit back..
you being so unreasonable and expecting me to give in..
i can not handle childish ppl well..
so i think it is better this way...

back to my work hole!! counting down...
have the heart to change job..
but the economy is scaring me..
so should i??

yeah.. let go..

well well..
i am back,,

haha..
okay..
ytd was a bit screw for me..
got so many things pending and i can not even find time to blog..
somemore ytd i was so tired that i slept at 10.30pm..
the earliest time ever..
really no joke..

well..
today i think i am better..
coz enough slp liao..
haha..

my temper is big ytd sia...
and my colleagues all have to stay away...
haha..
but after a good slp..
i think i am back to normal liao..
haha..

anyway..
 today is F1 day!!!
First Time going sia..
so excited!!!
can not wait..
haha.. XD

nowadays..
chief always tagged me on facebook for TKD demo and kicks..
i know i sucks la..
dont have to like that ma.. T.T
haiz..
it just meant that i have to work double hard..
sorry ppl if i drag you all down..
if not..
maybe i shd just stop my TKD???
since i so sucks in it.
haix..
but i think that this sport help me to lose weight leh..
haha..

shall see how okay..
haha.. :)
okay okay..
i have to get back to work le... :)

i will have to buck up...

mixed feeling..

1 more day to F1.. :)

i need sometime to sort out my thoughts today..
will blog later.. :)

it is just a small decision.. and i can not make up my mind..

so i am trying not to be washy mushy...
but i dont know if i can do it a not.. haha.. :)

i dont wan ppl to be disappointed by me..
so dilemma...

anyway..
count down to F1 Race!!!
yeah..

2 more days to go!!
woohoo!!!
my first time sia.. :)

so don't talk to me if you wan to continue to be stubborn..

Lazy and tiring Tuesday..

why is that...
coz back to work ma..
i am trying my best to work le..
but the motivation is getting thinner..
so ya..

well well..
ytd was not a so bad day..
went out with my family..
finding a balance between work, life and family..
how i wish my every weekend is so long..
haha.. :)

sometime if you wait..
the right one will come and find you...
so dont worry about it..
and i hope my cousin will go for it..
since all know that it is the right one.. :)

as for me..
i think waiting for someone to take action is not that hard rite..
why it seem so hard for me..
coz i am too boyish???
but that is me leh..
i can dress up lady like la..
but i think i still prefer the boyish side of me..
coz i dont fake it.. and i dont need to hide it..
if you can not accept who i am and how much changes you expect me to change???
i think there is no point..

as to side track a bit..
i think sometime when friend got onto the wrong foot..
have a drama going on for the weekend..
i am like the one watching it.. XD

so you think how long is my patience???
i think running very low..

coz...
you keep asking me for advise..
but you just go ahead and do the opposite..
so what does that means???
dont waste my time and ask me for advise la..
there is always a limit to how much i can talk.
the moment i start to find you annoying or acting stupid..
i think i will drift off.. never need an attention seeker in my life..
haha..

and sorry ar... by going out with other gals dont make me jealous at all...
coz there is no chemicals between us in the first place..
i told you before,..
we can only be friends..
and i really hope you understand it..
nothing much..

so stop all these nonsense before i cut you off..
i am not the one for you nor are you the one for me...
some guys just dont understand..
haha..

anything i do have nothing to do with you..
thank you...
your money and things..
to me is nothing..
i dont give a shit..
you can give to whoever you want or like..
get this clear..
FRIEND!!!

and to start off my morning without a so much bad day..
i have a short chat with a friend..
so she is asking me why i am still single..
i told her..
i am waiting for the right one to come..

there are many flowers along the way..
but i want to wait for the right one and suit me..
i got off the bus at the wrong foot..

so i dont want to get onto just any other cars that come along..
there are many type of cars in this world..
i just need the right one to accommodate cater to my needs and wants..

yes.. i admit and agree that i had been hurt..
and the wound is quite deep...
but i think my wound had healed.. just that the scar cannot be remove...
i am not being fussy..
i just learn to be more specific so as to avoid that scar of mine to open up or see again,,,

the weak side that i nv want to show ppl..
coz all assume that i am a very strong gal.. :P

erm..
okay..
enough blogging..
getting back to work..

listening to  周杰倫- 手寫的從前

holiday!! :)

YEAH!!! i got my pre-order for my iPhone 7 !!!
3 cheers!! hehe.. :)
can't wait.. :)

so it is a long weekend..

let throwback..

thursday met up with mel they all.....
have our dinner and love them all for giving in to my craving at Lady M.. :P
erm..
keep each other update of our life lately..
haha..
so it is good to have meet up...
we shd have another meet up for K-box kay! :)

went straight home on friday..
due to me being too tired...
so ya...

and my sat started as a tiring one..
book richard and wei xin for pokemon catching...
haha..
so we met up at cathay and walk all the way down to orchard..
not bad rite..
hehe.. :)

only got good catch at certain places only..
poor wei xin.. handphone die half way..
haha..
shoot my iPhone.. at least it last me leh..
your LG just died... XD
after that took bus down back to west coast..

as for that..
we head down to training..
me really sucks sia..
forget all my patterns....
until chief can not take it and ask all black belt to stay for pattern refresh after training..
sorry peeps..
got delay due to me..
haha.. :)

i think all along my patterns always sucks..
maybe last time he always train me that why i can remember..
but now i have to start from zero again..
haha..

decide to go for a hair cut..
cut short i say!!
and that i do..
love my hair style now..
it is kind of suit my face..
haha...
i think

so i went out for pokemon hunting at vivo again ytd.. :)
it is just fun.. haha..
walking ard and crapping..
well.. it is just who the company that you go out with that set your mood..
i will say it is awesome..

got good catch too!!! :)
i think vivo is really a good spot to catch..
have dinner and head home..

so today...
family day la..
too much pokemon hunting and have to stop it for a while ya.. haha..

looking forward to next saturday!!! <3 p="">

think it over..

today  iphone 7 is released for pre-order.. 

but only to Singtel..

have been camping at M1 homepage to start their bloody registration..

my apologies to my iphone 6.. 

coz it is dying on me and that no one is able to help me with the jail break..

this is what happen when all your friends are so original and you got no one to turn to for jail break...

haha... :) 

you might have serve me well for the past 1 year plus.. 

but it is time for me to let you go... 

haha.. 

too drama already.. 

M1 why you so slow..

singtel start their registration liao leh..

Dear M1.. Pls Buck up!!! 

i believe i have been paying bills on time every month hor...

not expecting this kind of shit from your end... 

haha.. 

anyway.. 

regarding the marriage thgts and arguments..

i think have inform all parties quite well..

and i have also "cover" enough as a friend...  

 i had come to a point view where i think both of them had to sit down and talk things out..

coz definitely it is going to be hard..

be it which hand to let go..

but it is a must... 

you can not have both perfect in this world..

you all have just make marriage seem like a joke..

try and error..

i dont understand!!!!!!!! 

you need to love someone enough to say the YES I DO ya!!!!!!

not just to test water to see if suitable a not..

oh.. 

i think this topic some kind of making me pissed off..

it could be just be me..

others are telling me to ignore..

but how to ignore when it happen to your friends... 

i just dont seem to be able to take a chill pill and wait for things to happen..

sometime maybe i just dont need to care too much... 

well to side track a bit!!! 

i am truly thankful for all that have been said and done..

thank god that i was given a second chance to get back my health..  

Listening to Jay chou - 大笨钟

just leave me alone... is that what you wan...

so it make me wonder back...

what is marriage life???
first in my lifetime i got camp below my house..
i am force to choose between friendship and happiness (not mine though)...
i felt very very bad inside when i have to tell white lie..
nv have i been in this kind of situation that i have to react fast and know how to save other ppl marriage..

i wan the best for both sides..
but i dont wan to misplace my friend trust in me..
i am torn in between..
knowing something is wrong..
when i kept quiet..
i become accomplice..
but if i voice out..
i might caused trouble unnecessary..

if in a marriage there is no mutual trust..
how it will allow you two to hold on??
forgive and forget...
can you really do it..

i was once at an age that i thgt i am mature enough to get marry..
i thgt that i can handle things well..
but seeing is learning..
it also make me realise that...
commitment to marriage require a lot of thinking..
you dont just get marry for the sake of marriage and when everyone else are doing it..

i will still wan to get marry...
but i think i might be more prepare for it as i learn along the way and grow up...
oh my god..
my old school ranting start again..
sorry readers...

my emotions are rubbing up on me again..
time to take a head off..
back to work..
 shan need alone time again..

listening to jay chou - 白色风车

Shd i go for it???

ytd the whole night listening to Jay chou concert..

how i missed.. haix..

but no worries.. 

there is always something call youtube...

this week and next week...

packed again..

shan is out to play again..

haha.. 

i think my hangover is finally over...

haha

at least my brain is functioning now..

well.. 

i am so looking forward to sat!! :) 

weekend come faster la.. :) 

listening to  周杰伦 - 甜甜的

finally... i am back... haha...

well well..
as to describe my very very packed weekend..
until i think i am totally drunk..
haha..

oh did i mention that i have watch the top box office movie last fri..
"train to busan" last week..
when you go and watch with a joker ar midnight..
you will realise that scary movie are no longer that scary anymore..
still can go back to slp after the movie lor..
coz i was laughing instead of screaming lor..
but i think the stoyline is very very sad,,
since the male leading also change in the end..
but at least he have done what he have to do...
i think sometime you just need to have time off from all the shits you face..

back on track..
lets start from Fri evening..
so i took half day.. but only go back at 4pm..
sometime it make me wonder what kind of half day i am taking..
but coz thursday i go off early ma..
so kind of make up la..
haha..

erm..
go home packed bag and have dinner..
after that head over to jasmine house..
yeah..
coz we need to prepare the "foods" for the gatecrashing ma..

anyway..
we have a break of 2 hrs.. before we woke up at 3am again to start the whole thing..
haha..

so saturday is so so rushing....
done through the gatecrashing, tea ceremony and church ceremony..
this is one of the super duper tired wedding i ever attended..
no joke sia..
since morning until night..
no time for my phone also..
den after the lunch reception at 2.30pm..

we have to rush down to the hotel..
luckily they provide helper room also..
so all the bros rush back to wash up while the sisters took the room to change and wash up...

so when we are changing up..
the reception called..
and we have to go down again..
for the decoration..

and i sent 2 sisters down..
haha..
too tired liao...

and follow by the dinner...
i become the made of honour..
following her everywhere..
but i think it is really really very very happy that i get to see all my secondary school friends...
can not believe it..
once all the chao Ah beng..
all now become handsome Guys with good career sia..
haha..
doctors and bankers..
me.. Purchaser.. :P

and we drink drank drunk..
haha...
all the guys are really well trained to drink sia...
they can really drink like a fish..
more like a class gathering maybe.. :P

well..
after that thank god have kharul to send me back..
totally drunk and fell aslp the moment i hit the car..
haha...
and he have to shake me to wake mi up...
i can predict my hangover the next day actually..

thgt of just going to slp the moment i hit home..
but have to remove make up first.
haha...
so i think the wedding have actually surpass my urge to go Jay chou concert...
still sad that i cannot go though..
nvm..
next time i am going to the malaysia one to watch if i can not make it for the Singapore one..
haha..
maybe even have chance to meet him in person also.
haha..

den erm..
ytd..
force my ah ma to wake up in the morning to go temple..
i am totally screw..
coz of the hang over..
but can not flare my temper..
coz going to temple ma..
must control..
haha..

went and then rush home to bath and change..
before meet up with hana to go Zamir niece baby shower..
OH MY GOD!!!!
that tomato is so so cute!!! can not tahan..
the cuteness overload...
haha..

we stay awhile..
before going to my uncle house to deliver mooncake..
haha..
so ya..

it is the mooncake festival again..
and moon cake is on the way..

have to buy mooncake for my grandaunt also..
haven have time to go also..
busy woman..
haha..

well..
i will try to go this weekend okay..
haha..  :)

too packed already..
very very tired..
but my silming session still have to continue..
haha.. :)
have to maintain my weight..
since i still got 3 more weddings to go..
super broke..
they say next year even more ppl getting married..
seriously..
pls ppl... my wallet already crying out loud..
maybe need to find a rich husband liao..
haha...

well.. give myself 3 pats..
since i manage to post a long long one..

but have to get back to work le..
before my boss fire my ass..
haha..

ciao..
blog more later... :)
oh well..
i will try to upload some "bits" of photos that i managed to take for the wedding kay.. :)

well well... emotions building up..

you see.. 3 more days to Jay chou concert..
oh my god..

and 3 more days to Jasmine wedding also..
haix..
tough decision..
haha..

well..
some ppl just dont listen and like to be attention seeker....
haha..
so the best way to fight it off is to ignore..
coz if you dont give them the attention that they want..
den it will be a pointless fight..
well pls continue to be childish ya.. :)

side track..
heard a news that broke my heart..
one of my colleague mum just passed away,,,
life is so unpredictable nowadays,,
you wun know when the next time it strike.,
i hate the part of losing your loved ones..

although everyone know that some day sometime..
we are going to leave this world for better..
but it just hurts and hard to lose or let go of someone that you have been ard for so long..

nowadays my ah ma have been telling me that one by one her friends are leaving her...
it really make me scare..
i dont want whatever say to happen..
i just wan her to be fine and health..
somehow i dont know how to console her..
her last friend left is my grandaunt..
one that came with her to Singapore together and friends since birth..

she requested me to go and visit my grandaunt with her one of these weekend..
i am fine with it..
she is also telling me that she is no longer that alert as she used to be..
nowadays i felt like i have a lost of words to say..
not that i can not face up to it..
but words are always easier than action..

someone that have been with me since birth..
took care of me when i am sick..
and even listen to my shits when i am at my lowest point..
dont give up on me although everyone think that i am hopeless...
i can not imagine one day to do without her..
i dont think i can..
really...

okay.
i think the emotions are flooding me now..
have to close the gate before my flood came down..

back to work..
i am really thinking...