nothing is impossible..

back from ytd emo..
met up with a friend for dinner and i was told..

when someone move on, they don't look back...
so i have not move on yet until i stop looking back..

and i was thinking...
how to move on..
and i realise..
i want to get into an accident that will let me lost memory..
i don't want to remember the pain, the suffering, the heart break that i have gone through...

does andy lau really sell this: 忘情水

 曾经年少爱追梦　一心只想往前飞

 行遍千山和万水　一路走来不能回

 慕然回首情已远　身不由己在天边

 才明白爱恨情仇　最伤最痛是后悔

 如果你不曾心碎　你不会懂得我伤悲

 当我眼中有泪　别问我是为谁　就让我忘了这一切

 啊　给我一杯忘情水　换我一夜不流泪

 所有真心真意　任它雨打风吹　付出的爱收不回

 给我一杯忘情水　换我一生不伤悲

 就算我会喝醉　就算我会心碎　不会看见我流泪

emo-ing...

still affected by the date..
so leave me alone and let me emo..

i will just get better tomorrow...

guess i am just a emo kid ba..
sorry reader... 

Listening to Andy Lau

  不要问我一生曾经爱过多少人

  你不懂我伤有多深

  要剥开伤口总是很残忍

  劝你别作痴心人　多情暂且保留几分

 不喜欢孤独　却又害怕两个人相处

  这分明是一种痛苦

  在人多时候最沈默　笑容也寂寞

  在万丈红尘中　啊　找个人爱我

  当我避开你的柔情后　泪开始坠落

* 是不敢不想不应该　再谢谢你的爱

  我不得不存在　啊　像一颗尘埃

  还是会带给你伤害

* 是不敢不想不应该　再谢谢你的爱

  我不得不存在　啊　在你的未来

  最怕这样就是带给你永远的伤害

empty...

anything can happen within 1 day...

and how do you feel like if you realize that in 1 day you lost everything...
emptiness and loneliness will swallow you up...

and you will felt out of breathe...
you don't know what you can do or what you have to do..

for me...
i am feeling all at 1 time...
so...

someone tell me how to shift out of this pathetic life of mine??

sorry readers..
i am very very moody today and emo...
just have to MIA for today...

listening to Andy Lau - 忘情水

曾经年少爱追梦一心只想往前飞

行遍千山和万水一路走来不能回

蓦然回首情已远身不由已在天边
才明白爱恨情仇最伤最痛是后悔

如果你不曾心碎你不会懂得我伤悲
当我眼中有泪别问我是为谁
就让我忘了这一切

啊给我一杯忘情水换我一夜不流泪
所有真心真意任它雨打风吹
付出的爱收不回

给我一杯忘情水换我一生不伤悲
就算我会喝醉就算我会心碎
不会看见我流泪

love old songs now... 

indeed they have deeper meaning than songs nowadays.. 

i want to forget everything... 

screwed tuesday..

and i pray hard hard for my vessels to be safe..
got a screw up work in office ytd..
stay late and i still can not finish..

haix..

maybe these few days will not be updating if there is really a big prob..
i can foresee dark cloud...

life is so short and why i am slogging my life away..

DAMN IT..
come on..
if i know he is a stalker i will not have talk to him instead...
have to solve this now..
play too near to fire le..
argh!!!

that that is my friend..
so added him...
how can ppl look so alike...
haix..
must be i need a spec liao..
nv know that i kanna stalk...
what the hell..
until i got a notification...

so conclusion..
in future if it is your friend den you add..
if not pls kindly don't add...
haix...

well and it boil down to why all the good guys are extinct from the world...
promises.. nv make them...
specially ones that you can not fulfil.....

where i am going to????

i wan to watch captain america...
anyone free...
but after i come back from taiwan la...
haha...

chit chat..

so i talk to my ah ma..
she felt guilty for what happen to my uncle..

she stop my uncle from the first one and in the end he is not marry until now..
so she told me of her regret..
and i tell her..
so why in the first place you do that...

it is alway the "you deserve better "do the trick..
but ever wonder it is not what the person really want..
i told her to leave my uncle alone as stop matching him with others..
but she told me..
my son is also not bad looking and have the stability what...

ya..
so what..
does he have  a choice now...
no.. he already got his age..
opportunity don't come knocking twice on a person door..

so i start to wonder if she will regret her decision that she made on mine????

blue.. my monday is blue...

let just say..

when you start to look out for friends..

you tends to see many weird ppl in this world..

and mostly if you put yourself in the market..

you just wan the one and only..

but will you dare to give it a try..

you will see that there is a lot of other guys outside with external motive/agendas then a simple meet up with coffee.

and i am told not to have an expectation until i found the right one... 

as such..

i really miss the innocent and carefree of us..

where he will never force me to do something that i dont like..

to be frank.. 

i miss his frankness and caring part toward me..

i kind of miss  his everything...

so now i understand what is call you will appreciate it when you have truly lost it... 

 why am i back to that again.. 

haix...

Listening to jacky cheung - 一千个伤心的理由.
recently i am in love with old songs..

爱过的人 我已不再拥有
许多故事 有伤心的理由
这一次我的爱情
等不到天长地久
错过的人 是否可以回首

爱过的心 没有任何讲求
许多故事 有伤心的理由
这一次
我的爱情等不到天长地久
走过的路 再也不能停留

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后我的爱情
在故事里慢慢陈旧

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后在别人的故事里
我被遗忘

爱过的心 没有任何请求
许多故事 有伤心的理由
这一次我的爱情
等不到天长地久
走过的路 再也不能停留

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后我的爱情
在故事里慢慢陈旧

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后在别人的故事里
我被遗忘

my super low life..

Haix..

back to office after spending a bomb..
can not believe it ba..
haha..

so tired..
but why my work always seem nv ending..

so i am back in office today again..
the word to describe me now..
low life..
haha..

well..
so i am still not talking to my mum..
haha..
i am not sure how long it can la..

have to push myself out of my shell and move on to lose some weight..
haha..
fat sia..
yesterday do tests and it scare me out..
have to start taking care of my health le..
haha...

and well..
if you all are thinking what is happening on my facebook..
there is really nothing..
i just decide to make more friends and nothing more..
haha..

waiting for a day...

so everyone is asking me to move on..
when i did..
why is everyone questioning me..
i am not in the wrong..
he had already move on..
so why can't i???

and at least i have distraction to shift me out of my suffering and pain..
beside i am just starting out as friend..
am i wrong???

well went for movie: jungle book at plaza Sing.
i think is so so only..
if you read the book den go watch..
if not..
a bit no point...

i didn't go for a date yet..
so really dun think too much..
we are just friend readers....