day 5..

so what have i done for my weekend???

i think i am always busy sia..
and i dont know why..
everyone is telling me coz i have too many friends..

so let go through..
fri..
erm.. too tired from the audit..
so went straight back home..
and we passed the audit!!!

thank you...
last year really affected me a lot..
no joke..
it make mi slow in my work and my emotions are totally like rojak..
trying my very best to get myself back to my life!!!
do all sorts of shits things to forget and move on..
and i thank god that i did..
also due to it.. it affected my work too...
i lost myself in the process...

so this year.. i think it is my payback..
too much pendings and i have to face my own shits..
but glad that i done it..
i wun have done it without your support too..
i thank you for that..

grew up and learning.. :)
it is the small gestures and sweet moves that got me through..
but my sotong is in korea now..
i am super sad..
coz i really miss my sotong.. T.T

as for my weekend..
went down to bugis with my ah ma early morning..
to pray for passing that audit and hope all are well for everyone..
met up with my secondary school friends for buffet after that...
see my snapchat.. XD
when was the last time we meet up..
erm.. decade ago?? haha..

after that head down for a staycation with hana, sheena and annake..
i got played by them..
coz they say that i am not true to my own feelings..
sometime i think that too..

i am confuse and not sure of what i wan..
but i am glad that those that are supposed to be in my life stay on and waited..
i am really thankful... and i am worth the wait..
i might be boring.. NOT... haha..
but i am sure to be loyal and faithful to those that stay..
cannot do it without this bunch of friends, buddies, BFFs, darlings, family and my sotong..

got back home from staycation on sunday afternoon..
after doing some "tai tai" shopping with hana and annake in orchard..
yes! i wear tee shirt, short and slipper walking down orchard road..
well.. that is ME! super boyish gal..
not all can accept but i am glad that you did...
luckily i didnt scare off other ppls.. haha..
an unique me rite..
there is only 1 me with that characters, dont think you can find elsewhere..
haha..

after that..
went to NP to play badminton with sir, his wife, richard and sir friends!!
i am not introvent..
just that i dont understand ppl well to mix that well yet..
haha..

and home sweet home..
sometime it just make me wonder..
we have so high tech nowadays..
and we didnt used it..
how "smart" can we be.,,
well.. i think sotong and octopus dont have to be "smart" ,,
they just need to be happy.. :)

well.. the joke of me and roy continue..
and i dont know why..
maybe it is a time to stop now??

Listening to (林俊杰) -  (小酒窝)

counting down 3 days to see my sotong.. :)

dead tired..

so i MISS my sotong in korea!!! D;

i think they forgotten to put me in the luggage too...
why oh why oh!!!
i wan to go oversea..
haix..

it is really a bitch..
ti gong pls protect!!! let me pass it audit with no deficiency..
i will go down and pray tomorrow sia!!!! :)

sometime it depend on how you bring out an argument and how you choose to handle it that will solve a lot of prob..
i am a person that wan to solve it on the spot..
instead of bringing it around and doing shits...
sorry.. backstabber arent my cup of tea..


Listening to Closer - Chainsmoker

sometime..

actually i agree with what he have told me..

the previous relationship taught us a lot..
it is up to us if we have learnt anything from it..
not everybody from ITE is bad..
who say that ITE ppl can not study..
i got ITE friends that got to uni..

taking a longer route dont mean that you can not success..
it just mean that you need more time..
just that you have to depend on the age and the timing also..

talk to him about upgrading..
and i was told..
it is not wrong to upgrade..
i nv say that it is wrong to upgrade..
even in the past i have encourage ppl to upgrade..

think back about the studying matter that i used to fight with my ex..
i think i just hope to get married first and he can continue with his studies..
and to talk about this matter with another person..
i think my point still stay the same..
why cant get marry and further study from there..
i am really not stopping..
but i think through my ex...
i learnt to compromise something..
just that this point i can not..

and he say that although i might not agree..
but my ex does taught me things through out the relationship..
as in i am who he taught me to be..
if not i will not be considerate to others..
but along i am considerate one..
i can only agree that he taught my family not to look down on ppl..
just becoz they are from ITE it doesnt mean that they can not success..
and i think it is also part of my character that i dont look down on ppl too..
that is why i got so many friends from different backgrounds ar..

so what have i really learnt from my preivous relationship..
i think it is for me to sit down and think about it..

coz somehow i agree that "he" had shaped me into a person that i am now,,
 although i didnt wan to admit..

okay.. i will blog later ba..
have to get back to work..

so what is my status now..

erm..
well i will not lie and to say i am attached..
but ya.. i am dating now.. haha.. :)
i dont know how long he need to ask me that question..
but i think at least is a step forward..
haha.. :)

a memorable day: 16 Oct 2016.

thankful for what is given to me..

i got the best weekend...

well to start off..
friday night went out for pokemon hunting..
after our work and late night supper...
 i think  i have to stop going home late since my ah ma miss me so much liao..
haha..
but my work in office is killing me..
haix..

next day i went to the temple.
coz 15..
and den headed home for training.. :)
bought a jacket with richard.. as in he buy shoe la..
and wei xin is the cutest liao.. say dont wan to buy but in the end he also buy...
haha..

as for that we went back home coz the next day is a busy day..
and i really need my slp..

well.. got a surprise call in the morning...
we went to mount faber for sunrise..
i will say.. the view is awesome! haha..
but due to the rain.. we can not see the sun rise..

it depend on who you spend the time with and not where you spend the place at..
haha..
i will say.. it is really something new to me.. :)

i wish ppl see who i am really is and not just that looks and face...
all can faded expect for the heart..
treat me well.. i promise i will treat you better,,
that is all i can say..
although we dont know each other long..
but i felt like i know you for years..
too many things in common..
i dont think i can find anyone that is able to understand me that well in such a short period of time..
even the songs that we listen is the same..

but one thing i am very clear is.. i dont give second chance..
just once you break that trust and that is it.. haha.. .

so i really think you have to go and think about it.. haha.. :)
i wun say that i am very good as i do have a past behind..
but i am definitely worth your heart! :)

i think i just got a better one.. :)

listening to  (林俊杰) - 小酒窝

love is in the air..

well.. i will say..
we are friends..

i believe friends do have late night calls...
send you back no matter where you are only when they are with you..
find you when they are feeling down..
go out to chill once in a while...
but:
friends dont do surprises with koi and ice cream..
friends dont send you anywhere you want to go when you are out..
friends dont text the whole day and keep asking you to drink water..
friends dont just think of ways to cheer you up and keep you happy throughout the day..
friends dont just wan to meet you everyday and keep everyday free just for you..
friends dont go one big round and explain themselves who they go out with to let you feel secure..
friends dont go pokemon hunting for you late night just to get some pokemons that you wanted..
friends dont just keep checking on you time to time..
friends dont remember everything that you told him and get it for you all the time..
friends dont get you to meet their family member for nothing...
friends dont call you at night just to hear you sing..
friends dont give you morning call to wake you up..
friends dont go listening to JJ songs just becoz you told them you start to like his song..
friends dont bring you out for supper in the middle of the night just becoz you are hungry..
friends dont do all sorts of sweet things and help you masssage when they know you are tired..

i am a human too..
i have feelings and i know all that too..
i just need more time..
and for me to be sure of myself..
time is all i need from you....

have to get back to work..
if not kanna mark again..
shan.. go and think about it like what all the others had told you..

Listening to 讓我心動的人 - JJ Lin

so what shd i do..

well.. i will just say that i am confuse..
i dont really know what i want..

someone that is straight forward or someone that is stable??
someone that is able to make me happy or someone that is comfortable talking to??

why cant all these characters be found in 1 guy???
haha...

okay.. getting back to work..
ciao ppl..

Listening to (王力宏) -  (大城小爱)