so.. i got a super fun and tiring weekend..

well..
have a tummy cramp..
gal prob..
not able to go down training..
it is just that bad..
lucky baby come and fetch me from work on a sat..
i am sorry baby...
if not i might faint in office..
okay that is too much...
well.. after that we just rot at home lor..
movie time.. haha..
lie in bed, with a hot chocolate, a warm quilt and tv on netflix..
i guess i am in heaven..
haha..

sometime i just think that he is a lady..
he seem to understand a lady well and treat a lady right..
scary..
haha..

well.. a boring and grumpy sat..
stay home day..

and sunday..
i got shits in the morning..
this work is pissing me totally off for now..
why..
interviews you dont come..
haix..

but my day is brighten up by baby..
coz we went bugis..
to pray..
den go and buy presents for wei xin and mdm! :)
haha..
yeah yeah..
kanna question by baby..

baby sotong: why are you always the one buying present???
me: coz i like to see ppl happy with what i have bought...
baby sotong: den i buy for you leh???
me: of coz i am super happy la..
baby sotong: but i nv see you wear all the things i bought for you...
me: coz i wear it in my heart..
**** sweetness overload*****
who say i cannot be sweet one..
lai.. jiang... XP

after that we have our lunch in bugis..
follow by a long walk down to suntec..
yeah..
our pokemon streak is still going very strong..
haha.. :)
caught a few rare one..

den he bring me down to the marine bay for the ilight...
nothing much actually..
and the food are just so so only..
but i guess...
it is the ppl that you go with that matters and not the place..

but due to the pokemon streak too strong..
we walk over to garden by the bay for pokemon hunting..
and saw dinosaurs instead..
haha..

the gong gong me..
how come still got so many kids over here..
tomorrow no school meh..
*** kanna say by sotong: coz tomorrow is already school holiday****
-.-"'
sometime when you are out of sch for too long..
you tends to forget about school holiday..
haha..

and i guess i completed my 21km walk..
just like the army boys ya...
until my legs are no longer mine..
and have leg cramp..
it sucks..

well i will say..
not any guy i see will massage their gf legs in the public just becos they are tired..
and i am very sure that baby is very tired from carrying my bag and dragging me along all the way..
but the sweet things about him is..
he dont care what others think..
and he just do it..

yes.. in the public at marine bay sand..
he piggy back me to a place to sit down..
and massage my legs..
coz i cannot walk anymore..
and he is telling me..
very few guys will carry and massage your leg in public..
and i replied..
yes.. you did and i guess i am in luck! haha..
the payment..
1 ice cream cone when my gal prob is off!!
haha..
negotiating.. :P

i thanks my baby for being so sweet..
i means we have our downs too..
but i thank him for the effort to make my days ups more than downs.. :)

love you baby sotong..
muacks!

i guess this week is also a packed week for me..

what is the shit about hanging up call..

seriously i am bloody pissed off and i sincerely hate ppl that like to hang up other ppl call...
so if i am pissed or not happy i hang up a person call la..
didnt you even have the bloody manner to say a F****** bye!!!!

i never understand that..
it can be a lot of ppl in front of you or you are busy.. but saying a bye dont kill you.
or telling ppl you are busy at the moment and get back later..
i am sorry but it is just me that friends matter a lot to me..
if you are not happy about it..
den i really think you shd not even have talk to me in the first place..
i am a real person as in if i dont like you i wun stab you..
but i am very sure that i will not wan to talk to you..
i dont do two face..

say that my character is like that..
i understand that we fight.. we argued..
but i wun say i hate you unless you touch my limits..
it is not a matter of being kind or what..

but as you see ar..
if i am out with my friends..
i am 100% sure that they will send me back like you will do for your friends..
so what is the big deal about it...
if you are tired.. you can just tell me nicely..
i am sure my friends can understand that..

that is what i call temper control..
i dont do things to ppl that i dont wan them to do it back to me..
so i dont hang up their bloody phone..
coz i am no longer a childish teenager..
grew up from there kay..

just like i keep jio-ing ppl out..
but they dont wan to meet up with lots of excuses...
i will naturally stop asking them out..
coz if they dont wan to be in your life..
dont need to force yourself to be in their life..
there are a lot of ppl out there that will want you to be in their life.. :)
remember...
what come ard ... goes ard.. :)

so my next trip is planned...

yes!!
next trip confirm le..
sometime i really lucky to think that i found my sotong...
haha..
hong kong trip booked! :)
the date and time will be reveal when he tell me when...
haha..
coz i didnt do the booking...
imagine suddenly i am out of Singapore for a holiday..
that kind of surprise..
nice one sotong!! ;)

a place that i wanted to go but didnt have the chance to do it in the past...
so i am thankful for the thgt to plan..
haha.. it is suppose to be a surprise de.. but i crash the surprise sometime back..
this is what happen when you have a clever GF..
haha..
seem to read his mind.. :P
need a break. hope i can get into school...
i guess since last year..
i have been taking a lot of breaks..

that is a good sign??
i am not sure..
but one thing i am sure about..
i have to do up my saving and start my future planning with another direction..
he is very keen in it too!!!
haha..

he is not gentle.. but his thgt is..
he is not good looking... but his heart is..
he is not rich.. but his mind is..

i am looking for a soulmate more than an ATM...
even with his last cent.. i will still be his priority..
but when i am down or troubled.. his ears are always there for me no matter how late..
i thank god that i found him...
sometime it is just a twist of fate...
last year this time.. i am still suffering from my heart ache..
this time this year.. i have a sotong to amend my heart and keep it safe..

position and title is scary...

yeah..
my topic today is about promotion and rank difference..
you see..

if you tell me that being promoted but you remain your old standard..
that is a lie..
why i say that..
coz with my own eyes..
i see how a person that i have known for 10 yrs..
changes within few month to someone else that i nv know..

ppl are asking me why i didnt climb the corporate ladder..
coz i know how shitty it is to climb up on other ppl backs..
but i guess.. it dont matter to you at all..

no matter how good you do.. there is always someone else to comment behind your back..
to me..
i will ignore at times..
coz it doesnt seem to make a point to me..
but you have seem to get high up on it..
disappointment is all i can say...

well.. ppl say..
time will let you see a person true color..
but i disagree...
coz greedy and power will change a person..
you have the status and salary..
but we are not...
you cant expect us to work like you..
since you are higher paid than us..
the power and position changes the moment you promoted and dont expect same treatment like us..

we can only take over when the new boy come..
sian balls!

i have no words to say... so i will just let karma do its job...

so it is just you and me..
i will not do that..

if you wan..
you go ahead and do it..
but worry for karma..
that is all i have to say..

Thank you very much..

i shd skipped the negativity like what sotong had told me..
but this fellow is too much..
too much to the core..
and i hope you can rest well and slp well at night ya. :)

so i am back to square one...

in a place full of backstabber and nonsense...
i really hate that place..
why do ppl have to behave that way..
all of us are just trying to keep our rice bowl..
so why are you all trying to destroy other ppl rice bowl..

i will say that i have met enough of these kind of nonsense ppl before..
but to be frank..
i nv want to be involved..
but seriously!!!
are the mgmt blind to keep taking all these kind of shit ppl..
YOU ALL MAKE ME WANT TO VOMIT!!!

pls continue with your two face..
and let karma look for you kay!
when things dont go your way..
you are only good at showing temper instead of solving it..
so what kind of leaders are you..

deep thgt about it..
although i can choose to forgive..
but you are trending very very near to my limits..
i will just finish my things and go home..
no worth a second to be spend here...

that is how it will end..

ya.. i know.. 

today is a very sad day for me..

coz faezah last day already.. 

a colleague that is with me for the past 6 yrs.. 

too many emotions and feelings overwhelming me..

there are ups and downs..

and i am so glad that we have been through it together..

okay.. i have to stop my post... 

my emotions are covering..

it felt like a second break up...