i really dont understand... how can such a guy ever exist in this world..

well...
why the hell you will wan to message other gals when your own GF is in front of you..
if you wan to play or cheat...
pls go far far away okay..

kid mentality??
really need to grow up..

so you guys finally know what i am feeling..

so went cycling with hana and sheena...
and they got a taste of what KT temper is like..

now all tell me to break up..
haha..
finally they felt how i feel..
come on..
there is always a reason why i blew up..
just that ppl tends not to see it and thgt it is all my fucking fault..

well..
you see..
i guess my character is not that bad at all..
just that i met with a worse character than i do..
haha..

what state am i in...

well.. i am in a state of half single and half attached..
haha..
why so..
coz i wanted a cool down period..
so ya.. :)

leave me the way i wanted to be left..
haha..
so it is earlier for me... :)

i am giving you time and choices to think it over carefully... :)

so what you want me to do now..

i will say this relationship is wearing me down..
at times i felt that i can not cope..
but all are asking me to compromise...

what can i do to make it better for both of us???
i am just guessing that compromise is not the key to solve this problem...
it just not the idea of me giving in or he giving in..
we are just temporary putting a stop to it..
sure it will pop out again...

i wan to go back to the day when we just met..
no fight, no quarrel, no hate...
is there a reset button..
i wan to reset it all...

is it that we have to get through this phrase so that we can move on..
or we shd just go back to the past to the stage of hi and it is nice meeting you....

perhap you need to know me further to make any decision..

thanks for pissing me off to the max,, you got it...

oh well...

i guess there is really something wrong with guys..

why they like to piss the head off you..

den they apologies...

really... 

you think going down on your knees to apology is very big deal??

i dont think that is a proposal.. 

so use your brain to think why i am pissed and not just saying sorry..

maximum fire..

sorry sorry sorry..

you think you singing super junior song ar..

no emoji icon can represent my fire.. 

coz i think all underdo it..

i will just put a volcano erupted face.. 

yes..

i block and unblock.. 

and the best part when you ask me..

i blocked again..

so i didnt hide it behind and i dont need to hide it that you pissed the shit off me..

i do it in your face..

boy.. 

you really got a lot to learn about woman okay... 

if you dont know what we want..

go and think..

your brain is for you to think..

that is the only purpose your mum give you that rite..

and yes..

you can see all the harsh words coming out of my mouth..

why..

coz i am bloody pissed...

in case you dont see it or dont understand that..

oh my god..

due to my anger..

i went on shopping spree...

and i spent a bomb..

all your fault..

i am so going to claim back from you..

and i meant it..

a lesson for you to learn..

not to pissed me off..

at the wrong point...

you are going to get yourself burn..

i meant it..

housing also can be a problem.. haix..

well..
i planing to get a house with my mum..
so that at least we have a roof over our head..

erm..
okay..
coz baby already have a HDB flat with his mum..
so i will not be getting with him..
but it will come to a prob of stay where??

his flat or my own (if i bought one) ....
and i dont really wan to stay with in-laws either..
coz i guess i dont wan to act and not being able to be myself..
if there is fight who will support who???

secondly..
i guess even when i fight with my mum also i can close my own door and slp it off...
if i fight with him..
den how??
his house..
i can not be pushing him out..
if my house..
which he will not wan...

haix..
headache la..
i guess i prefer to stay on our own is better..
but it is just too complicated to me..

getting into mono tone of life..

i guess there seem to be something wrong somewhere with myself..

exercise kid...

what my uncle is telling me... 

i know la..

 but i shall not give myself excuse that i am busy... 

haha.. 

i know where it leads too... 

 

my life now is about going to work, pak tor and go home..

and everyday repeat..

i wondering why 1 month pass so fast without ppl knowing..

do i want this kind of life..

as in is it me that is really leading this  kind of life..

or maybe i dont think i am in the right mind of settling down now..

haha... 

not that i am still in a playful mode..

but i wan to understand what kind of life i really want before i settle down..

i wan a simple but not so mono tone life.. 

i need someone to talk to..

i need someone to understand what i meant..

not what the norms are doing... 

sometime i think that the way baby is mixing with my family is faster than what i have expected..

and at times it scare the shit out of me..

when your family at times took side with him instead of you...

why they didnt show him the warmth in the past... 

it make me realize that life is so not fair.. 

perhap is when my ah ma had seen how sad i have been through the last breakup that make her change her traditional mind.. 

The lost of my yi ma make all of us appreciate each other more.. 

so end this monotone post with a short note.. 

sometime is the ppl that you are around make you feel that you should be cherish! 

my weekend with TKD buddies are always the time where i felt that i can relax and enjoy...

what i am suppose to do without my friends and buddies..

i think i will just die..

haha...