a packed weekend..

well...

after training..
got gathering with alicia they all...
yeah! :)

den sunday...
family gathering..
one more thing that i realise is that..
i am so used to joining my ex for family gathering that i seem to forgotten that i have family gathering too..
haha..

that is called too used to one side..
well bi planned one this coming sunday..
looking forward..

well.. you see if you invite someone to your wedding..
den you reject ppl due to not enough space...
after that you tried to invite ppl again..
you really think i will go???
i dont understand la hor..
it is just funny..

sometime i was reading about my sign online..
and i realise up to a certain extend..
it is quite true for myself..
coz i wan the best of that person when i am in love with the person..
but when everything is set and done..
i felt that i can not forget what they had done to me..
and it is kept in my heart (as in my feelings la)...
i didnt wan to share it out..
but it kind of turn into something else..
although i kept telling myself to let it go..

it could be just me..
but online is saying that just Aquarius is weird..
so i agree that i am weird..
but do others too??

are we compatible??

ytd bi went to my house for a dinner..
and something that he did scare the shit out of me..

he is trying to play with me...
but he is holding onto my neck (position when you tried to struggle someone) ..
this scene brought me back to when i am young..

i saw the exact same thing happen..
it is embedded into my memory..
i can nv forget it..
a fucker did the same thing to my mum..

i think after that i quickly went back to my aloof attitude..
he thinking what really happen and i told him i hate what he is doing..
but to him.. it is just "playing"..
i dont know how to tell him what i have been through..

and after what happen ytd..
i am very pull back from him..
everyone telling me to get marry..
but what happen ytd..
make me want to shift away..
i dont think he is the right one anymore..
no more..

i dont know what is to say to him now..
i dont even know how to start a topic..
and if i am making the right decision???

erm... got a suck holiday..

well..
i think i am sick..
as in really....

back in office on friday, saturday, sunday..
tell me where is my long weekend again..

yeah!
back up plan..
i think i need to go home and stay home..
someone to yang me pls..
haha...

well..
saturday..
went down for training..
and i give extra training hor..
coz i am going for classes liao ma..
so sir say i have to take lor...
haha.. :)

i think due to the course thingy..
i got a bit of feel to go back and train better sia..
haha..
not to say i am very good la..
but i want to train back my skill..
i wish to go for higher dan..
haha.. :)

as for sunday..
went back to office awhile..
but down with fever, flu and cough..
so stay home lor..
body can not take it..
and bi came down to cook for me..
haha..

so i am a xin fu de xiao nu ren..
yeah yeah..
we have abalone big feast..
coz he just love to cook..
and my ah ma will tell me to go help him..

why a sick person still can not rest de..
what lau de..
haha..

but looking forward to this sat and sunday! :)
party time.. haha..
i think with him around..
my stomach will nv go hungry..
haha.. :)

public holiday is it..

so it is a public holiday and i am back to work..
seriously to those that have to work on weekend and public holiday..
i understand how sucky it can be..

coz it take up your time and freedom..
sitting in front of the bloody computer just to make sure that the email got it..
i really hate this kind of attitude and working style..

only good at talking and i have to work like shit..
seriously..

okay..
i shall not continue with my fire..

well..
happy holiday to all.. :)
it is a long weekend but ppl pls enjoy it before it is gone! :)
long weekend always gone in a blink of eye...

counting down to bi bi birthday..
so fast rite..
i smell my wallet burning..
haha.. :)

wondering what to get for him..
in progress..


as for this few days..
i am really kind of emo..
i wan to go back to the age of 21..

i wan to start everything from fresh..
i wan to get a better chance to live my life..
i got 100 and 1 thing to do..

well i am back.. hehe...

hehe..
get done with audit..
back from my company trip..
one word to describe..
tired..

well...
the trip is just fine lor..
i am more looking forward to the thailand trip with bi!:)
i dont understand why ppl have this thinking that going on a holiday meant that something else happen..
keep those stupid thgts to yourself..
and dont stereotype..
not just some ppl shortgun marriage den all the rest are shortgun marriage..
old mindset thinking coz it is due to all your gossip mouths..
i dont understand ppl.. why they can not control their mouth..
whatever happen to the couple stay within themselves..
unless they are willing to share..
if not..
dont go and stereotype so that you can judge someone..
i dont care how senior that person is..
dont go around and judge ppl..
if you can not keep your mouth to yourself..
that is your prob..
not other ppl..

anyway..
i think i am taking up some courses..
maybe that could be my second job..
coz bu yong bai bu yong..
haha..
gov pay somemore..

but before this..
let us have our dinner date first..
haha..
mini TKD meet up with drinks and pot luck!
woohoo... :)

some habits are hard to change....
i still have the habit of calling other ppl names..
if only there is a delete button..
i will remove all these habits..

well..
thankfully..
my baby is understanding..
he didnt say anything but of coz i know he is very bu shuang...
i promise to try and delete this habit okay..

sometime it is just funny how we fight with each other...
but how we will still appreciate and give in to each other..
i didnt realise that he can do it...
or i will say that i thgt it ended with my ex..

coz last time my ex felt that i am too much in certain ways..
we still got make up after fights la..
but actually bi make me felt like a better me..
he seem to be able to understand and teng me better..
maybe due to his way of approaching is different ba..
but well i still thanks baby for being such a good boyfriend to me..
understanding and listening to my rantings..

sometime it just take time la.. :)

Many apologies for the missing of blog post..

well.. i know that i have not been blogging recently...
coz.. i am having office audit..

i hate company audit a lot..
really a lot..
coz they will ask you thousand and one thing..
it make me feel like i am having a job interview..

and the worst is the OT of staying for nights and nights...
but works are never done..
it just have to keep coming..

i just pray hard hard that i nv kanna from this audit..
i wan to have things go smoothly and no problem..
haha.. :)

well..
after this audit..
follow by company trip..
tired and sian..

i think after my audit then i will be more active in blogging..

i promise i will try not to let it die okay.. haha..
but i hav to fight with time to get it done..

how to piss someone off..

well...

everyone is different.. . 

dont think that your point of view is going to suit someone else..

coz.. 

it is not going to work for some ppl...

you might think that.. why this person is like that..

why he/she cant just get himself up and find a proper job..

well... 

it is not just about the job..

if you cannot get it now.. 

imagine that there are hundreds of ppl fight the same job as you...

stable yourself first even before you learn how to fly..

that is very true..

but if all you wan to talk about is passion..

den i got nothing to say le... :)

oh.. happy 10 month anniversary baby!
love you!! thank you for being there for me...
creating all the happy memories with me..
cover all my pains and stand up for me no matter what..
i know i have my moments..
and when the moments come..
i can not tahan too..
you being nonsense and making me angry seem to be your specialty..
 but i guess it is still working out quite well for us..
haha.. :)

sometime just wonder is it me being lucky to find you..
or you being lucky to have me...
we having so many differences but still can just go through..

but  i still wun say that he is the one yet..
haha..
Jian guo gui jiu hui ba hei..
out for a movie and simple dinner to celebrate today..
although it is ytd la..
haha..

erm..
went for a short trip to malacca...
nothing much there leh..
if i wan to go..
maybe i will go ipoh or penang..
seem like a better place to look for good food..
haha..

okay okay..
i am suppose to lose weight for the wedding this sat..
but look when i am now..
haix..

pls pls..
make me lose slimier can..
fats fats go away..
haha..
like it helps.. :P