so the question is " is he the right one"

oh..
regarding to something that i wan to share the last time i was upset by it..
ya..
the prob started with my work..
so i am a typical asshole workaholic..
but recently.. i felt very very unhappy at work..
coz i used to have a bunch of very very trusted friends that work together as colleagues..
and i thgt we are ppl that can share anything under the sun..

well that is not true..
coz ppl do backstab..
the group of my 'so-called' buddies..
some of them turned their back on me..
i felt that no point..
coz it no longer make me happy working..
my weekends are better spend with my family and love ones..
so it is disheartening..

side track abit..
i guess that love is a strange thing..

why..

coz although there are times where i totally want to kill him..

and have to control myself to avoid my temper from coming up..

he acting like nothing happen..

but i dont understand why i hold back and forgive him time to time..

well.. 

everyone that know me... 

know that i am easy going person..

although i have my stubbornness la..

but i am definitely not a jin jin ji jiao kind of person..

if it is a small thing i will just show my displease and let it go..

i dont hold it long..

but he is the kind of person that will forgive but nv forget..

so he felt that ren shan bei ren qi... 

meaning if you are too kind,, ppl tends to take your weakness and bully you.

but for me... 

i dont mind the small thing....

just a small gesture or thgt can make a person day.. 

why not??? 

although it may or may not be appreciated... 

but why so ji jiao..

haha.. 

if everything also need to count until cents.. 

jia lat liao lor.. haha.. 

he is only good to friends, family and gf only..

i think i got a kinder heart then him maybe..

haha.. 

well the point is .. 

he cannot accept me for who i am.. 

coz it is just me that i am like that..

but he felt that i jiang bu ting and always kanna bully by ppl...

which i dont feel that way..

and he think that he just have to accept me for who i am instead..

i told him.. 

if so hard.. why contiune..

and he told me..

i am worth it..

sometime he is good at words..

and i think i just lost to ppl who are good at words..

erm..

regarding to work..

since long long time ago..

i was told to change job by my ex until now with my bf..

haix..

i know i know..

too comfortable is going to kill me...

Pei Shan you need to get your ass up..