enough is enough..

give me sometime..
i will get over this and move on..
although it hurts..
i wun fight no more..

when i let go..
i dont want to go back or turn back..
i am sorry that my limit is reached..
i am too tired and sick of the shits you are showing me..
i wish you all the best for the next relationship..
and i dont think i am the right one for you..

so sorry...
leave me alone now..

back to work after a holiday... that is called a killing spree...

so when i went to hong kong for a holiday as to relax with my friends and baby..
i dont wan to come back..
coz i know the amount of work waiting for me in the office..
can someone just cover it over me..
seriously..
haix..

well..
i think i went to big buddha for health and world peace..
but i think i should also mentioned about less work and more money..
haha...
at least i can relax a bit lor..

i missed the days when i can release all my stress...
i guess i will have to go back to running...

and i have to get my ass back to work...
well..
do what you want and all you want..
i have no comments..
coz i just wan my job done and move on...

back from Hong kong.. let me tell you about my trip..

so i went Hong Kong for 6 days..
a place that i wan to go since that time..

well if you ask me..
i will not say that it is not a place that is totally no worth to go..
but i just guess that it is super exp...

it is more exp than Singapore..
that i am very sure of..

and i guess it is just fulfilling one of my dream to go Disney land..
haha..

well if i am lucky..
i could have go to japan for once..
but i am super broke now..
so i will just guai guai stay in Singapore kay..
until my next trip...
haha.. :)

as for the updates..
i got sick on the last two days...
so it turn out to be a hotel staying...
haix..
why sick on the last two days!

 dont ask me why..
coz i am asking myself why too...
haha..

well..
as for the trip...
not a bad..
coz we took local public transport..
haha...
ya...

we took the small bus and first time speaking Cantonese to the uncle..
haha..
i think i confused the bus uncle.. :P

well.. it is a good experience for us.. :)
and baby bought me a tigger..
haha... :)
although i say i dont want..
but the heart can not control la..
haha..

for somemore update...
i guess i will posted more on my insta ba..
too lazy to list down all the places and things we have done..

yeah.. 2 and half day more to go..

ya..
going for my hong kong trip...
i dont know..
just felt that the more i intro him to my friends..
the more scare i am..

maybe due to my nonsense mind la..
well.. my weekend is not a good one...

coz ytd i went to see my grand aunt..
the sadness overwhelm me..
coz she is literally  the skin to bone..
and it just happen over a short span of 2 weeks..
she is the one that had been seeing me grow up..
coz my ah ma always bring me to her house..

so she is not sick..but just cant stomach any food down..
i will say just like my ah gong..
in liquid diet..

and i really hope that she will at least stay with us for a few more years..
at least to see her youngest grandson get marry...

not sure why..
but sadness overwhelm me..
and to say..
i was moody since ytd..
i guess i can not see ppl that are in that state...
coz last time i see my ah gong also i got pissed off..
coz he always make a lot of noise.
but when he is gone..
i realise what a stupid person i am..
coz i wun see him again..

and i will not make that same mistake again ba..

ytd...
i was PMSing..
coz my headache just wun go away..
and it really pissed the shit of me..

went for training..
and richard sent us down...
thanks richard..
this is what are friends for ma...

so good to have a uber friend!
yeah.. :)
and i realise many taxi uncles hate them..
coz in richard car down the road to food court...
 dont know kanna horned how many times liao..
haha..

and head down to Circuit road for dinner..
blowing my temper off..
of coz not at my chief they all la.
at baby la..
he text me..
den i called back..
in the end..
i kanna shit..
what the hell la..

so he came down to send me back and i just head straight to bed..
ignoring if he is home a not..
i am not being evil...
i am being bloody pissed off...

if you are not happy with me..
the door is open..
and you can always go..
really....

like that tell me how to tahan for my hong kong trip..
i dont know..
and i dont want to know..

on the bright side..
i am getting out of one shit holes..
but it look like i am jumping into another one..
what the....

time to pack my bag too..
nothing is done and packed at all..
good job pei shan..

have to get back to my work...
hope i can have a good holiday and avoid with all the shits..

stop with your "my friends" are more important than me..

you can continue with your thinking that why..
cox i am super and duper tired of explaining...
i feel that you like to get into the argument with repeated story...
if you nv learn to let go..
i am not sure how you are going to move on..

and to be very frank..
i am very very tired of staying on the same ground and fight anymore..
my last argument will be ytd night and i will not bring out this matter anymore..
even if you wan to continue you can..
  but i will ignore you...
and secondly..
maybe i am not the right person for you...
so i guess i might have to move on instead of staying on the same ground..

trust me..
i can forgive a person..
but there is also limited to my patience.
dont take it for granted ya...

i prefer to move on den keep staying on the same ground and argue over the same topic over and over again..

you really have to grow up faster then my patience...

well..
ytd night...
my cousin rush to hospital coz he is not feeling well..
there is a very strong virus going round..
so i guess you all have to be careful with it..
stay health and drink more water.. :)

oh so it is wednesday today..

drama in the office..
and i have to clear the shits again..

sometime it make me wonder..
coz i am too kind that everyone can climb onto my head and shit..
i wan to fight back..
but if i fight back..
it is going to break the harmony..

so i wan to finish my things before fri...
as such i dont wan friday to come so fast..
but i wan my weekend to come faster as i need a break from all these dramas...
haix..
how contradict i am...

disappointed morning..

so it break my heart that i didnt get into the master courses that i want..
and i guess...
i will just have to move on with my next plan le..

good in a way as i got a back up plan to fall on..
and i dont have to be in the same class as my boss..
that is the most thank god point..
haha

i know what i wan to do and i have to move towards it.. :)
be it with or without him...
let me go and heal my disappointing heart...