big step...

wondering why i am blogging..

well i went back to a place that have the most memories today..
have not step foot in since the day i have decided to leave..
i am just not brave enough until today...

i decided that i can not avoid that place forever..
so.. yup.. i went back to jurong point..
at that moment...
all the  flashed back...

almost broke down..
but i have to force myself to face it..
i know that i can not avoid it anymore..
i have to move on..

i shd not have anymore hold back..
but i think the most i can tahan is 1 hrs before i crawl back home..
it is still too much for me..
haix...
am i too useless..

nope i dun think i can go back there in any near future..
maybe i still need time..
too much thinking..
i think that is something in me that i can not change..
but i think i still can control a bit..

focus PEI SHAN.. you can do it de..
i just hope my ah ma to have good health..
so that all my sacrifice will worth it..