just leave me alone... is that what you wan...

so it make me wonder back...

what is marriage life???
first in my lifetime i got camp below my house..
i am force to choose between friendship and happiness (not mine though)...
i felt very very bad inside when i have to tell white lie..
nv have i been in this kind of situation that i have to react fast and know how to save other ppl marriage..

i wan the best for both sides..
but i dont wan to misplace my friend trust in me..
i am torn in between..
knowing something is wrong..
when i kept quiet..
i become accomplice..
but if i voice out..
i might caused trouble unnecessary..

if in a marriage there is no mutual trust..
how it will allow you two to hold on??
forgive and forget...
can you really do it..

i was once at an age that i thgt i am mature enough to get marry..
i thgt that i can handle things well..
but seeing is learning..
it also make me realise that...
commitment to marriage require a lot of thinking..
you dont just get marry for the sake of marriage and when everyone else are doing it..

i will still wan to get marry...
but i think i might be more prepare for it as i learn along the way and grow up...
oh my god..
my old school ranting start again..
sorry readers...

my emotions are rubbing up on me again..
time to take a head off..
back to work..
 shan need alone time again..

listening to jay chou - 白色风车