my explanation..

oh.. and my friend ask me abt it..
i guess this question will just keep popping out until all of them know that i have broke up..
or when i decided not to meet any more friend that dun know abt it..

everyone is telling me..
why break up..
why nv try harder..
excuse me..
you all are not in my position..
what make you all think that i nv try...
what make you all think that it is easy for me..
what make you all think that i will come to this stage if i can change abt it..

yes.. it is my choice..
a life time partner is someone that i have to live with for the rest of my life..
but my ah ma who have been with me for the past 27 yrs and counting..
i dun wan anything to happen to my ah ma..
beside i always believe that if it is mine..
no matter what happen..
it will still be mine in the end..

if it is not mine..
it will not be mine even no matter how hard i try...

so i met him on thursday with my clips..
everyone ask me..
not weird meh....
you can tahan ar,,
he got talk to you a not..
he is okay a not..

seriously i dun noe..
have i put down.. yes..
have i gotten over it.. no..
did he talk to me..no.. as in not directly...

why is that so..
coz i am not a robot with delete button and reset..
i am make of flesh and blood..
i have emotions..
if i say i dun miss the old times and him..
i confirm is lying..
why???
8 YRS!! if you dun love a person or to say dun like a person will you be with him for 8 yrs..
common sense answer is NO!
so stop asking me question if i have gotten over it a not...

sorry readers...
it just happen to me in a spur of moment..
i tends to get trigger very easily..
that is a bad point..
have to change..