ranting on..

Back! :)

let talk about my personal life.. 

these few days are in total havoc.. 

let start with saturday..
came back to office.. work work..
and then went to the motor road show 2016...
woo.. blow your mind off.. the queue is a killer.. can not even see the tail..
so took some photo outside and went back home..
haha..

as for sunday..
lays ard in my bed until 9am..
haha.. wondering when i will be able to get my full term rest..
but nvm.. woke up..
went to bugis..
ask about my career and studies...
wondering if i shd go for Master in Maritime studies in NTU???
but the money is kind of keeping me off..
i think i shd but the money... O.O

after the praying.. went back to office..
i am a workaholic.. so what..
haha..
well..
augustine is also in the office.. >.<
so i am not the only one.. haha.. :)

trying very hard to clear up my filing..
but it seem to not going down..
T.T
my life is sad..

rushing home at 4pm..
coz Chief and Mdm ask me to go dinner to celebrate their birthday..
so Sir JJ, Wei Xin, Lopez and richard with chief and family go for korea bbq..
well.. i clear up the misunderstanding of he not letting me go back to TKD..
actually is i not going down due to i forget all my patterns already and to avoid some other things..
but it is just purely on me and nothing to do with him..
i dun noe if they understand a not.. but i felt the need to clarify...
i dun wan to create anymore misunderstanding as i am really tired of it..
hope they can stop it.. -.-

so after that i went straight home to iron my clothes..
and back to office on Monday..
haha,,

while i am back to office..
something happen..
i dun understand why.. but i can feel that zaleh they all are moving out from me..
as in we used to talk and joke like nobody business..
but after the incident.. i felt that we are not longer in the same frequency.

there is nothing going on between me and Mr. Ali...
NOTHING!!!!!
you all dun understand me at all..
if you are someone close to me.. be it family, friends or bf..
i will have stand up for you if i think that you are not what others talking abt..

i dun side anyone..
i just think that if it make sense and your character proven wise..
i will just choose to believe you..
i am not someone that will just go for benefit regardless of fact..
always GIVE people the benefit of doubt before you judge a person..

keep an open mind..
i wun say over trust but at least listen to the explanation..
stubborn ppl will reject explanation and think they are right..
that will be up to them..
but i felt being attacked for no reason..

got my appraisal on tuesday..
well.. as can see i am getting better..
so ya..
but i think there are still many areas for improvement.

but something happen in the office that make a bunch of us fall out. .
why it happen..
i can not say.. you will never understand a person heart..
as they can talk in front of you good things.. but backstab you behind..
i have not been a backstabber..
so i think i will not call anyone backstabber..
just to avoid any misunderstanding..
but sometime misunderstanding also can kill..

and the drama continue until wednesday..
which is ytd..
i have been told abt something..
but i just lend a listening ear..
i dun see that i have make any mistake..
but keeping silent is not a solution..
i felt very unfair to me...
but if the person involved refuse to speak the truth..
what can i do..
avoid the person??
i dun noe what i can do now..

at a lost..
and i dun understand why everyone is saying that i attract different skin color guys. .
i am not and will not be..

i think i will continue it later or tomorrow..